I keep thinking about phoning the doctors to make an appointment but then suddenly the whole idea just seems so silly. Late at night I tell myself, tomorrow I will call, then morning comes and I just laugh at myself like no chance.
I tried looking for therapists/counselors but there aren't many around, and even then I'd probably just feel the same way I do about the doctors.
I just don't want to feel the way I do anymore, but I can't do anything about it. It's silly.