I had my first session of EMDR last night, well the pre-session where you practice calming techniques and choose a safe word, etc. I really hope EMDR can be helpful for me. I've been in therapy for years and I've learned a lot and my awareness has gotten really good, but still no change in my feelings or my behavior. I had a traumatic childhood, not one specific event but just an ongoing bad situation where I didn't get my emotional needs met. I'm not worried about revisiting the past, the past doesn't feel that painful when I think about but it is painful when people in my adult life trigger me with abandonment or not meeting my needs. I'm just worried that EMDR might not work because I noticed in the first session that I was really self-conscious and I have a fear of letting go or being out of control. Also we're doing it over Skype so I hope that doesn't affect anything.