Hey Sweepy, I think you hit the nail on the head right there when you said you're feeling angry. Anger is a mask for sadness, just a different stage of it. I'm in the same boat as you. Can't cry in front of my therapist. I do however sometimes cry when I'm alone. From what I've read, your next step should be to embrace your anger and start communicating about that. Nothing heals like angry tears, or so they say. If you suffered csa you should be angry. Don't suppress that rage! Good luck.