Ok, so I still haven't heard from her. I called the counseling place and they take my insurance so I have an appointment tomorrow at 3. The whole idea is really intimidating but I can't just let myself try to forget it and move forward, if there's a problem (and i'm learning quickly there is) then I have to do something.

My question is this, should I go by myself first? I still haven't heard from her. Do you think she'd even be willing to go with me? Do i let her see any of the stuff from this thread?

I almost just wanna go tell everything to the therapist and let her tell me how to move forward. After all, i'm the one who needs fixing evidently.