Thank you Sans I will look into it.
bataviabard- Thank you also. Congrats on your strength to become sober. I will look for the chapter in AA's book that you suggested.

When he has his accident last year the doctor in the ER told him that he had never seen anyone survive such an injury much less walk into the hospital. I thought that would wake him up.

Yesterday I tried to talk to him and ask him if this is what he thought God had in mind after he was given a second chance. I am now getting the silent treatment.

I had a dream last night that I had a bear, as in large grizzly, as a pet and he needed to go outside. When I opened the door to let him in the back yard there was a drunk man dead in the back yard. My greatest fear for him.....for my children......for me.