Thank-you for the borderline forum I don't understand why people in my hometown mock me all the time They mock my personality and what I say. Any kind of relationship is hard for me. I sometimes feel like there is no hope or giving up. I don't feel safe going to the hospital or mental health because the professionals mock me as well. I would rather be dead than go to the hospital for help. Are people treating me badly because they think I have narcisstic personality disorder or do they just not understand me so well. I don't know what to do I am so confused with life and the world right now.