I'm having a hard time because I turned in my last tool today. My urges to cut aren't that bad, but I usually intentionally trigger myself and feel like if I don't do it, I'll fly away in pieces. I cut myself to pieces physically and mentally so I don't end up in pieces...makes no sense. Anyway, I wish I hadn't of done it on my hand because of Thanksgiving coming up...I'm terrified of passing plates at the dinner table and someone seeing. It is literally eating me up. I'm trying to heal the cuts and take care of them, which I don't usually do.