I already have SSI. Its my brother that we have been fighting for for over a year. Yes, I do agree that demons and angels are real. I don't think its a hallucination but my psychiatrist won't agree with me. She always makes sure to say I'm psychotic. Well most of the time. Just because we see things that others don't doesn't mean its not real. Maybe we are seeing into the dimension that they come from, but I am afraid that I will end up in Hell. I am terrified of Hell. That is what stops me from committing suicide most of the time, along with wanting to see what technology is coming. There are light energies and dark energies. I know that some people see that I have a light energy, but i just know I am darkness. Maybe they know I want to help people, in at least a way. I've helped my friend, actually saved his life from committing suicide. I don't want to hurt people, maybe that is what they are sensing. I would never hurt someone physically. But uncontrollable powers have hurt billions. I can feel things and sense things that others don't. I see connections in everything from birds flying patterns to Internet sites relating to others no matter how unrelated they seem at the time. Everything is connected, but that bothers me. This means everything is set in stone, I am destined to fail. But yet I am very powerful in other ways. Dark ways. Its just I don't trust this Earth. There are other Universes. They are connected to us, but there is infinite possibilities. For Earth there are other possibilities. Some "Earths" have not yet experienced world war 1 or 2. Some are at total peace. The one I am from technology is far ahead even though its just the year 1984. I realize HERE its 2013. But technology wise it isn't impressive. The Dow will hit at least 17,000 here. Maybe as high as 18,000 unless something goes horribly wrong. Have you heard of "starseeds?" This is why I don't belong on this "Earth." There are many things that remain the same on most of the other
"Earths." Of course there are other planets that can sustain life. I see events that others don't see. I know most people would just quick to label it "psychotic" or "delusional." I am becoming more aware of what I can do each year, more detailed. This is why I'm connected to planets all along. I have written about planets a lot even on here. Once when I was not aware of my surroundings (this will sound weird but still) I was literally between both worlds, I couldn't react normally. Floating there in space, not knowing what to do. I hope this doesn't sound too weird. And yes the war is still coming, the Chosen Ones will fight and it relates to my power. I hate it.