Why guilty? I think she'd probably see it as a good way you're trying to take care of yourself. Do you think you're undeserving?

I had the same issue with my mother. But sometimes I'd get up in the middle of the night and get one of my stuffed animals anyway. If I didn't wake up early enough and put it back before she woke me in the morning, she'd go ballistic when she saw it, but the comfort was worth the punishment. They were my friends, so I understand the emotional tie. I think it's why I take care of the ferals now, even though it costs so much, and I don't tame them as much as I could because I'm only here temporarily.