Amy, it's so clear that everyone really cares about you everyone called to check up on you, and wanted to make sure that you were okay. I know that things like this can be so incredibly mentally exhausting, and that seeing people you know make you really anxious - I have the same issue. I don't want those close to me to know about the personal things that I deal with, because it makes me feels so vulnerable and helpless - I hate that feeling! However, maybe talking to your husband about it would help relieve some of the anxiety, mental exhaustion, and sadness that you've been feeling lately. It seems like he would be great support, and right now that's really what you need. Sometimes, being in a gray area, not knowing what to do or what not to do, is worst than being in a dark place... Because the feeling of confusion and not knowing is one of the scariest of all... How have you been feeling today? Has anything gotten better for you, Amy?