Thanks for all the replies.

I do see a psychiatrist once every two months. He basically just prescribes my meds and thats about it. I am "stable" enough with the ones Im on right now, and I hate to be "experimented" on with new meds because its such a long, excrutiating process with each new med.

I dont see a therapist or psychologist, but I would like to because I certainly can use someone to talk to who could maybe understand me a lil better than normal people do.

I dont just THINK everyone makes fun of me. I KNOW they do. They do it because I am a disgusting, ridiculous person. Im not sure what it is that I do tho. All I know is that everywhere I go, people laugh at me, and I get bad reactions, mockery, etc, from a lot of ppl who dont even know me.
My doctor and family say its not real, and that its just one of the symptoms of my schizoaffective/schizophrenia. But I know its real.

My family does help me, because my parents still provide me with a house to live in, and everything else I need, even at my age (29 yrs old). My mom takes me to the doctors appts. because I dont want to take a bus or taxi. They do all they can, but I always get the feeling they dont really understand.

Most ppl, including my family tend to think that it would be really great to live like me, with no responsibilities, work or anything else. Getting up at 1pm every day, etc, etc. But they dont realize my life is being wasted slowly while I just sit here without a way to change anything.

I have chronic depression too, of course, but I dont take any antidepressants because they give me bad side effects. (Mainly, sexual side effects, which are not acceptable to me, because if I have NOTHING in this life, at least I should have that lil amount of joy, shouldnt I?).

A change in my meds would mean that I will take a new antipsychotic for my schizo symptoms, and that is just so scary to me because all the other times Ive tried different meds, its been hell. Ive gained so much weight on one of the pills as a side effect, and I never lost it. I feel terrible about that too cuz Im a fatA55 on top of everything else.

Ok, this post is long enough. Thanks again for all the support.