Yay Absurd. I'm glad you have improved over the last two years and that you are compliant with your meds. Sorry you are having an upswing rith now (if that is a bad thing for you). Fingers crossed for no crash after. Nice to meet you Absurd, I hope to see you in chat.


Hey everyone. Just an update on me, as I just read my original post and things have changed since then.
It's now been 2 years since I joined PC. I have many friends and really enjoy posting my poetry on Creative Corner and participating in live chats.
Back then I was dx'd with BP2. That dx has now been changed to BP1, because of the length of my episodes and because I'm now having full-blown mania's, instead of solely hypomania's. This really scares me because I'm having less hypomanic ep's, which I kinda really enjoyed. I'm also terrified that my condition is worsening, and that I will soon be delusional.
I'm currently on Zeldox and Pristiq, which seem to be working pretty well at the moment. I'm still not back to what I call my normal self, but I'm not suicidal either and am pretty able to control my emotions and behaviours. So, Yay about that! I was unemployed when I joined here. I now have a full-time job, which I'm managing to be fairly reliable for (a few sickies here and there).
I no longer feel like I'm drowning; more like floating along, with occasional periods of doggy-paddling. I'm no longer desperate for someone to talk to because I know I have many friends on here. I now get my self-esteem from helping people on here. I'm very rarely the depressed person in chat looking for support; I'm actually the person giving support. So that says a lot I think.
I'm still single, so still not quite ready to trust again yet. But I did put myself on a singles dating site recently. I don't know if I'll get up the nerve to meet anyone, but maybe I might.
I now live with my sister, who I get along well with, we are very close. So that has helped with me isolating myself. I now permanently have compnay and someone checking on me and my well-being. I'm not used to it and it annoys me sometimes, but it is good for me.
She has 2 cats, so we now have 2 dogs, 4 cats and 3 guinea pigs living with us. Crazy.
I would like to be able to re-establish some friendships in real life, so that is a goal of mine. It is hard though because the only people I come into contact with are my sister, my clients and my workmates.
Other than that, I'm not as far along as I would like to have been but I have to give myself credit because I have come a long way, and I haven't given in to my conditions.
I loved reading all of your posts. It's nice to meet you all. I hope to see you in chat sometime. All the best with everything.
If anyone is bored, lonely, and needs a friend; feel free to leave a msg on my board or pm me. I am a friendly and helpful person. Take care xo