Talking over things. Why is it sooooo hard to leave even if we know that a relationship is toxic I know I am not the only one like this. On one hand, I feel terribly depressed about giving up my love and I am also scared that every guy will turn out to be the same, even worst (he said that no guy in the world will accept a girl with a past - if he did, he's a cheater). On the other hand, I don't want to lose out on my life.

Anyways, he said that if we had to move to different locations at work, he can't be with me. I am trying to get into another location as soon as I can, without telling him. I am making things easier for me. Fingers crossed that I can survive. For now, I can't think of marriage and love - I am depressed to that extent.