A lot of people can't handle illness, it reminds them of how fragile we all really are. I am so sorry you are going through this and I hope your two friends that are there remain faithful to your needs. Just remember that sometimes even good people have a hard time dealing with illness and they still may be thinking about you just may not be able to express it. Not to say some people aren't just shallow but who needs those people in their lives anyway. I wish you the best I have a lot of experience (through my father who passed, my mother who passed, and my sister in law who survived) with cancer and know how bad it can be. I wish you the best and will keep you in my thoughts.