Yes, you understand it correctly. Sorry about my english, sometimes it can be difficult to understand.
I have been told that depression can assume many forms. And I do have many symptoms of it, but certanly there must be some limit to the symptoms. I guess making lists to have psychiatric disorders diagnosed can be somehow limited some times. But even so I wish I could knew someone feeling depression more or less as I do and being sure he/she is depressed and notice some effects with treatment. It would make me feel more sure about me.
Sleep and me have a long history. I can't find the right amount of sleep to feel fine. Not to lazy because I slept to much or not to tired because I slept to litle. I usualy take a benzo to sleep, I know that by now the dose that I have, hasn't already any effect on me, but still, just the fact that I know I take it makes me feel calmer and sleep better. When I do that on weekdays generaly I don't need much time to fall asleep and I don't take them on weekends, but still I have to wake up so early (at least for me) that I find my self needing some sleep time.
I realy wish I could find someone like me in some aspect, I haven't find a treatment that works and it makes me have serious doubts.