<font color="purple">Right now I'm in a pickle... Don't know what to do.

I've been busy with this baby part for about 3 weeks now.

Went inside and formed a HUGE group hug that included all the parts hugging me, hugging Tooty, hugging baby. Picture a chrysanthemum with ((((Cat[[[[Tooty{{{{baby}}}}]]]])))) and the rest of the parts around us. Well, now a huge explosion has happened. Baby's total sum of being is being spread to all of the parts, is reverberating around with all of the horrible experiences of the past... all the emotions... all the body sensations.... multiplied within all the parts.... and I'm feeling all of them at the same time.

It's totally unbearable. I can't stand much more. I've been in this place for 24 hrs now. Talked with my T who says "Bear it, you're tolerating it, guess it'll have to wait til we see each other again on Thurs, can't see you before then." I'm so frustrated... can't stand this any more. Won't see me early.

Why is this happening now? Why must it continue so long? Is this the end of the parts? Does anyone have any ideas?

Anyone out there? Anyone listening?




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