Does anyone else get this?

When i am in a social situation, for example, sitting with a group of four friends, I constantly feel like Im being examined..and i feel like I am like a deer caught in headlights, literally frozen with, not quite fear...that isint it..but anxiety. When people look at me I get urges of panic and stutter my words.. or ill try to pick at something near me to keep my hands busy. I have almost gotten to the point of avoiding it altogether, though I have found having friends visit ME doesnt seem to be AS BAD, but is still pretty stressful.

Luckily I have an appointment with the pdoc tomorrow, Ive missed the last two because I was ill/slept in.

I had such a bad day today, lots of arguing with the ex i now live with, he said some things, i cried a alot.. hes apologized since but its left me shaken and not quite right.

I took two clonazepam but im still feeling wiry and on edge. Dont know how im going to get to sleep tonight to get up for my appointment at ten thirty.

I want to crawl under a rock.