I have not been on this site in years. I had been managing my bipolar issues very well, except for about two episodes a year. I have been manic for two months and I can't take it anymore. I am home from work today and tomorrow and I have all of next week off to try and quick this things ***.
I've been to the pdoc twice in the last two weeks. Last night I took a new regimen of 100 mg Geodon and 40mg Latuda, along with 1mg Xanax XR. The good thing is that I slept, but I wole up early and just as manic as ever. I can't be still. I totally see why Van Gogh cut his ear off because I cannot for the life of me stop moving!!!! It is driving me bonkers!!!!
I am also completely obsessed that someone at work is going to find out and that I'll lose my job as a music teacher, which I love more than anything, except for my daughter. I am paranoid because people were asking me why I was so jumpy and why I couldn't calm down. The kids were asking about my weird movements that I get from the Geodon. I just feel I can't take it anymore.
Does anyone have any advice they could please share? I am desperate for relief! Do any of you get paranoia? Also, my jaw is killing me. Is that the antipsychotics? Thanks so much for your help.