Your fear is llogical, its emotinally charged and not based on any type of reality. Not all men are the same, or we would all be in your shoes right now.

Secondly, your bf just admitted that he's a cheater, he's dating you (with a past) afterall.

Everyone has a past, everyone of us except a newborn, so maybe your bf should get betrothed to a newborn! Some of us have pasts that we aren't proud of either, pasts that make you look like a nun. But we choose to be with men who love, respect and accept who we are now, in the present.

Men who have zero interest in who or what was before them, men who understand that its NONE of their business and that it isn't relevant to them in anyway...

Why oh why you continue to ALLOW this to keep you chained to this man, I just don't understand.

Its difficult to leave I know that first hand, endings are always sad, no matter the circumstance, but they lead to new brighter beginnings. The longer you put off leaving, the less opportunities you create for new beginnings.

Go back home to your folks, they sound like good people.

Please, if you do leave, don't forget to leave silently, I got the crap beaten out of me because I didn't know about the silent bit. When he's at work, pack your stuff and go home, home where people love you and want the best for you. You have nothing to gain by sacrificing yourself in this relationship. Nothing.