Hey I'm new on here I just found this site. I have been a little....off (for lack of abetter word) since I can remember and when I was like 13 I saw a counselor who said I have signs of being molested when i was little, but I don't remember it if it did happen. Im not close with my mom because of the things she has done. She used me as a babysitter constantly startig when iwas 10. She would leave me homevwith the kids sometimes for weeks with no money no food and i had to figure out how i would feed everyone. And because of her ibhave crazy trust issues and i never felt like she loved me. And for the past year I have really been trying to battle my demons but they always win.

I thought I could get through this on my own, but it only made me worse. I've been seeing a guy for 8 years and when I told him I want to know whats wrong with me, he told me to leave it alone.

But I don't want to leve it alone. I need help. I want to know what's wrong with me . I have no one in my life who listens to me. Which is why I'm here...