awwww...ouch, you seem like such a great person....try having a day activity once in awhile...like get involved with a club in your local community...maybe community service...that way you meet people...try to get involved...go to church..if you dont believe...thats fine...go somewhere that you might feel comfortable with...go with a familiar friend...have them set you up with people...then as you get to know these people you can pick and choose the ones that really help your self esteem and attitude and bring out that nice person i see you as...hang out with them maybe once a week..just start really small and work your way up...go easy on yourself...i know you will do really well...good luck ...((((((((hugs if they are ok with you)))) pm me anytime