TRIGGERING...VERY TRIGGERING

You need me. You need to cut. I'm the only thing that always made you feel better. Only temporarily, but I made you feel better. Don't you want to feel better? You know you can. It'll just be once more. I'm your only friend. I'm the only one who's been with you through everything. I'm the only one here for you. I can comfort you. Just let me comfort you. Why won't you let me help you? Just give me a chance, just one chance, then you can choose to never use me again.

I just want the tapes to stop. I want to feel better. Cutting always made me feel better eventually... yeah, it took more and more...but at least it always worked.

I miss it. I miss it so much. I just want to feel it, to see it, to see the blood slowly seep from my skin, to see it drip down.......

How do I make the tapes stop? They won't quit and the only way I know how to make them stop is to listen and obey. It seems like it hasn't consumed me like this in quite some time. Will the desire ever go away... I mean really go away?