Hello there, I am Alex, 21 years old, from Serbia. I think I have a problem, and it's depression. You see, 5 years ago, something happend to me, I ended in hospital, turns out I have epilepsy. In that same time I lost my best friend and slowly I begin to be separated from society, from people. I had constant depression problems, even tried to kill myself back then (4 years ago). And what happend next is that I started playing MMORPG games just to distract myself, to do something. Of course, I found utopia in that, but the problem never passed within me, only got worst. I was happy playing this games but then I started realizing how unsocial I become and how much I don't like to hang out with people. I swaped reality with internet illusion. Like internet friends from games. I wanted to believe that can be true, at least something good, you know. But of course, none of this stuff work, and I got only even more depressed. I also realized that I don't have strong enough will to do anything. I can start like 100 projects and finish NONE. That thing also make me nervous. That can be seen trough games. For example , I start with one character, change to another, and do that so many times until all the people lvl up just one character. And of course, they are ahead , I am "loser" . I think I said all important so far. What should I do? I don't have will to do anything basicly.