memories don't seem to be an issue. Mostly just emotions. Any emotions (like jealousy, blame, anger AT someone, instead of about something, etc) are all difficult for me to accept, because I want to be happy for other people. I had a horrible moment today where I was going in to see my T and he had a little girl and her mom leaving. I was so jealous that the little girl was getting support, whereas with me I was an adult before anyone stuck up for me. So in my head I denied the feeling, argued against it, explained why I should not be feeling it, etc.

I feel that inside me, in order to be a good person, I can't have negative emotions. Logically I know that most people have negative feelings about other people, they just decide not to make them public, or treat the person badly because of them. But understanding something emotionally and mentally are completely different.