Thanks for all the comments and suggestions. I had my appointment last night and we talked about this. I had already been emailing her for the past week, so she knew what to expect when I came in. She agreed with me that researching too much about topics can get a person really confused. It can also stir up a LOT of anxiety that can be avoided if I just talk with her directly about EVERYTHING!

I like what skysblue said about being honest and telling people she is in therapy. I have gotten that way, too. I don't just blurt it out, but if I feel it may benefit someone I am talking with, I will tell them about my experience and how much therapy has helped me.

I did miss two weeks seeing my therapist this month. It was due to me losing my voice and I couldn't talk. I didn't feel that well, either. But I did okay not seeing her. I managed just fine. She was good with that, but wondered had I not been sick, how would I have done? I mean, when you are sick, you don't feel like doing anything.

She was quite proud that I did so good, just apprehensive when I said maybe I didn't need her anymore! I was just joking, but kinda serious a little bit about tapering it off. Then, all HECK broke loose in my life and the blasted panic, anxiety and depression bombarded me! I think I have learned not to go to the extreme about situations, but I sure realized how much it helped to have that support system in place. Someone I could tell ANYTHING. You can't do that with just anyone.

We had a really good session. I was very open and honest about my feelings about how long I have been in therapy, and that I felt kinda guilty about it. Like she was really tired of me, but just didn't want to hurt my feelings or send me into a downward spiral if she talked about an ending date for therapy.

She assured me that she was not planning to discharge me until both of us felt that the time was right. She assured me that I was not getting on her nerves, she was not tired of me, I wasn't 'messed up', it was okay to 'need' a support person, and that I have made a huge amount of progress since seeing her.

I told her that now that we have worked through so much of the painful stuff, I realize how much more I need to work on! Myself! With all that baggage gone, I am beginning to see me and who I am. I want to work on who I want to become. That could take forever, but as long as she is okay with seeing me, I will continue with her.

We do have a great relationship. It's almost scary, though. Could I manage without her? Probably so, but I wouldn't be all that I could be if I choose to stay in therapy and continue to work on myself.