That it's worked so well in the past is what helps it seem like a good idea the next time you're overwhelmed. I think it will always seem like an option, but you can change your reaction to it. It takes a lot of work, though. I thought I was through it and turned out to be really drastically wrong.

((((((((hugs))))))))) I know it's hard. Hang in there and keep talking.

Love, Candy