I cancelled my appointment with my T on Monday. I don't feel like she really gets me. Plus her office is too far for me to drive if I'm not getting a good outcome. I've already discussed termination with her, but I do need to talk to her about this. The whole prospect of telling her this makes me feel uncomfortable/guilty. Mostly guilt I think. I'll call her tomorrow. Maybe.

I'm also feeling lonely. I guess I have for a while, but I don't really allow myself to think about it. Damn holidays.