So tonight has been a bad night. I've been trying to stay completely sober. I spent 6 months last year being completely drunk to avoid my problems. I have had a couple instances in the past year but I've had another tonight.
I purchased a small bottle of Grey Goose before I went to see a movie that was dispose to be special to me and someone significant. I drank at the last movie ( this one is a sequel). I don't know if I'll ever get passed this relationship.
I emailed my T that I wasn't doing so well but before she could reply, I bought the vodka. I pretty much tell on myself and I did so again because I emailed her again after she emailed me and I eluded to the fact that it was too late and I already purchased alcohol. I don't want to go to therapy tomorrow because I'm ashamed of my behavior and my pathetic weakness. She's going to be so disappointed.
I really should skip it for the next couple appointments....FML

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