Thank you all for your encouragement. I feel better just knowing there are people who sympathize with me a little. Most of everyone says that things will be fine, and I should move on. It seems like they don't understand he's more than a brother in law to me. We were very very close once. I can't really do anything at this point, but sit back and wait. It's just so hard. A part of me wants him in my life, I want him to come see me, and want to spend time with me again, but another part of me is so hurt that I can't stand the thought of him. I would kind of like to cut ties and say screw you, but then I kind of want to call him and beg him not to let this happen to us. It's just a confusing place, and weathering it is taking a lot out of me. There's also the fear that if something happens to me I don't want there to have been a wedge between us.