I feel like giving up tonight. I feel like I'll never be well. My T is amazing and probably would pull me back form the brink of destruction. However, she has to be sick to death of intervening. I'm way too much work and I'm not really worth the effort. I want to say efff-it!!!
Giving in would be so much easier and it'd probably save both My T & I from pointless endeavors... I hate disappoint her because I care about her very deeply!!!!
I'm such a failure!!!!