I'm sober 10yrs. Alcoholics drink than seek out someone to hear their 'crime'. When I say it's a 'game' I don't mean a conscious game. But it's a persona we adopt.
Some swap that persona for the persona of the alcoholic in 'AA'.
For me I had to drop the whole think. I just become someone who chooses not to use alcohol to cope.
I doubt your T will be disappointed. They're not surprised by any thing.
But it does take courage to put down the cloak of helpless alcoholic and face our real problems.
Good luck.