After a couple of months sober I lost my job and stupidly went on a 5 day drinking binge that landed me in the hospital over Christmas. Talk about scary - I thought I was going to die.

I'm now in a treatment program (outpatient) at the same hospital and at the urging of the Dr., decided finally to go on antibuse. Part of me feels like a failure for needing it, but at the same time I know I need that extra crutch to not pick up that first drink.

Guess it's back to trying to do 90 in 90.

---splitimage