What I wrote there is only a small part of what happened, obviously after one and a half years with her a lot more happened. She would blame me because I wasn't working, she would blame me for everything that had happened that brought me to her in the first place- things that weren't my fault, like being abused, being treated badly and being cheated on. She would say that I did all of this to myself- maybe I unknowingly contributed but by her saying that did not help when I was distressed and suffering post traumatic stress.