Choocha, sometimes we get in the middle of our episodes before we figure out something isnt right, it took me 2 months during the spring. For me esp, mania is hard to pick up on, when its a mixed mood, even harder to figure out. Your behaviors sound mixed but you need to see your dr to determine whats up. Some things you are doing dont sound safe, its just my thought but I would call your pdoc soon. Also, do you have a therapist? Mine helps me keep track of my moods and can often pick up on my manic symptoms before I can. Plain depression isnt so hard for us to catch but happens so rarely.
Best wishes