Hey all.
I am a freshman in college and I got accepted to a good school in my hometown.
Unfortunatly this meant my father scaring/pressuring me to live with him.

We never really got to live together when I was younger and he felt it was "unfair" so he wanted to spend the last of my childhood together.

The thing is that as soon as long as I could imagine I wanted to live independently. But I didn't mind living with him at least a year.
The pressure and stress of school combined with the overbearing presence of my father in my life has made me extremely miserable. Basically I just want to back my bags and leave.

We had a nasty fight the otherday. And every disagreement every lecture ever "I'm only doing this because I care" makes me want to throw my hands up and leave.

my dad is also scaring me into staying, saying things like "I'm pretty sure your not the type of person to abandon their family" and "we don't have long to live in this world".

It pisses me off so much because I hate the resrictions I get and its making my depression uorse and killing my social life.

He even says things like "you don't need a therapist we can always work things out as a family".

And I just don't know what to do.

I very much want to leave but everytime we talk he ALWAYS convinces me to do what he wants. guilt trips and blackmail included.

I want to spend these next four years you know, enjoying my life.

I have a plan to leave next year but I'm scared he'll convince me to stay a lil longer. And I really don't want that.

Thanks for reading I just wanted some advice for the future/ coping mechanisms.
Also I'm trying to get a therapist b/c I'm starting to hurt all over and I'm pretty sure its not from a cold