DKJFKJDKFKJSJFJEJFJ I can barely effing state what I want to because every word would be starred at this point. I AM ****ING FURIOUS.

I can barely breathe and I want to smash someone's head in. (Not that I will) I want to smash something up. And my ****ING T won't answer her ******* ****ing office phone even though I know she's there, useless, I'm telling you what good is your ****ING PHONE IF YOU DON'T ANSWER IT. I am aware she could be in session but that does not help me and right now I don't give a crap.

What I need is coping mechanisms for anger. Do not tell me to walk that makes me worse. ANY ONE?