((middie)),

When I was nearing 9 months pregnant my husband got really strange and one night he never came home. I was a wreck because he had been out all night drinking and was even with another woman, but I was not to find that out until "years" later.

My husbands reply now is "I was just a jerk" and he gets angry about how badly he had treated me, how selfish he was back then.

I think men "panic" and don't even know "why" themselves, can't even verbalize it, but just are afraid.

I think that it is important that you focus on taking care of yourself right now so the rest of your pregnancy goes well. Play calm music and distract yourself so you don't fill up with cortisol from stressing so much. Right now, be a good mother which means "get rest, don't stress about what your bf is thinking or doing, and focus on "yourself and your health and this little girl coming into your life". Stay in the moment and try not to project and ask what you are going to do in the future, that is not important right now, what is most important is that you take care of you and your baby. Try to put the bf issues on a shelf in your mind and don't try to figure out what "he" is thinking and doing, he has to think about this and sort it all out and most likely will not even be able to verbalize how he feels either.

(((Caring Hugs)))
OE