For over a year now, I have been trying to get a job in a certain industry. My youngest son moved with my x husband a year ago and I lost my child support. I have been trying to find a job that pays well enough to provide my kids and I with a home. I have left no stone unturned and have had no luck at all. I am living with my mother for the time being. I try to conceal my depression, but on occasion, it shows. My mother gets angry with me and proceeds to tell me all I do wrong. I know I am an adult and she is my mother and this is her house, but this is all becoming unbearable for me. This will be the 2nd Christmas in a row that I cannot buy anything for my kids. Almost every week, I am in contact with someone that encourages me that they will find me a job and it never happens. I am on a roller coaster and it is draining the life out of me. I have no one to turn to. All this talk of having faith, being patient...surely, God knows I am only human.