all the time in my head,,,, I told my pdoc about it yesterday - he got really upset with me... but I told him it was better than what I used to do - in reality...

he told me that I had to stop being angry and blaming myself to be angry at the people that hurt me. he even got an angry face (which he never does - at least in 4 years) I think that he was trying to decide to put me IP.

I hate it too!!!!