Ok so today feeling a million times better! It is SUCH a relief. And my period has started. So how much of the last couple weeks has been PMDD and whats been withdrawls or a depressive cycle, its hard to know.

Its like I forget how bad it gets each month and then when it sneaks up on me again its a shock to the system. I feel like its never going to get better when Im like that. Then the bleeding starts and I feel completely different.

Im going to stay on the 3/4 dose for a while now I think. I wont try to mess with my meds again until the hormones are figured out (if they can figure something out for them). I am already on zoloft but have a bit of wriggle room to go up on that. But by the time it starts to take effect it should be time for my next gyno appointment anyway.

I think I will try and get some Zyprexa PRN from my pdoc for the next couple months of hormone cycles because the seroquel and ativan just dont cut it.

Thanks so much for the support. This thread has helped me figure things out in my mind.