I was in a very similar place for way too many years with the OD's....I actually lost my pdoc because of the OD's. I think he thought the ultimatum would shake me up enough to stop.....because it was almost like that was the action that had become my response to the stresses I was going through.....but it didn't happen because actually at that point I didn't want to live any longer.

What I have realized almost 20 years later is that I had some serious issues going on with my bad marriage & everyone including myself thought it was about my loss of my engineering career. Sometimes we have serious issues that seem to be hiding under so many other things that ends up really being the reason for the OD's.

Sounds like you do have a lot going on in your life right now......I know that school is stressful.....but then again....so is life after school when we are trying to make the career happen.......sometimes when we are at points like that, it's really important to analyze all the reasons for why we are reacting in that way......it's usually an indication that some serious changes are needed in our life if we feel that OD'ing is our only way out because it's usually an indication that we are trapped in something that is making our life very miserable.

I turned out that yes, I was trapped in loosing my career because aerospace industry in Calif fell apart at that point in my life & at 43, I couldn't get another position as an firmware engineer anywhere.....& worst of all was being trapped in a bad marriage from the beginning come to realize that my career was my escape from my bad marriage.....so it was a double whammy that I didn't see clearly at the time......sometimes it's the hidden issues in our life that are the real key as to why we are reacting with the OD's.

I think that your T may be trying to set up the ultimatum for the same reason my pdoc tried.......but in reality....you need to really figure out why this is your reaction & what it really is in your life that is so bad that's it's causing you to react in this way?

I understand the struggle.....I also know that there is a solution....that takes quite a bit of analysis regarding your life to better understand your actions.....not easy without a good T......I never had a good T until after I Ifinally left my H 6 years ago......which was about 13 years I first started having serious issues with anxiety & depression.