I have been out of the ED unit of the hospital for 17months and am still struggling with Ana's voice. I have not gone to any EDA meetings, as there are none close to me. I stick with therapy and my dietician. When I was in the hospital, I was told that it would take at least a year for my body to really be in recovery. I had a slip up this past January and was in the psych ward and barely ate while I was there. They tried to get me to go to another EDU, but they left it in my hands. I needed to go, but had to deal with insurance and gave up. I also lost my T and dietician at the end of that hospital stay.

I guess I managed to pull through by telling myself that I needed the food as fuel for my body and so I could be a good mom to my daughter. I, and my DBT therapist, use the phrase Chugga chugga Chew Chew a lot and that helps.

I still don't have all my hunger signals back, and am getting better about them. I had to have an alarm set on my phone to remind me to eat certain meals and that has helped a bunch, especially in the beginning.

Why are you seeing less of your T? Is it your decision or theirs? Maybe it is time to find a new one and a dietician who specializes in EDs.

Remember to take each day, moment by moment, meal by meal, or bite by bite. Recovery is achievable, we just have to be our biggest cheerleader.