They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but for me that's a fine line. Do you have to lose everything to get there? Do u have to change who you are completely before you see that strength. How many "blows" dose it take before your skin begins to thicken. How many times do you have to hear a word before it becomes that, just a word. Do you every really get used to it, or do you just push it to the back of your mind, smile and move on, or is that the fear talking, telling you that you cannot live without him. You will spend eternity longing for his touch.

Your heart is a tricky thing, overwriting what your mind is telling you. Everyone says seeing the best in people is a good thing, but is it really. Kindness gets u stepped on, giving gets you used, loving is the worst of all my traits, when I love I love hard, I give it my all never expecting anything in return. I've been chewed up, spit out and forgetting by anyone I have every tried to love, and even after all the pain and hurt, I still love, I am broken inside. I never want anyone to endure the pain that I have, I want everyone to know how being loved feels. I've had a glimpse and it's wonderful, it fills you up with a warmth that is indescribable. When will it be my turn, one day!

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