There's a lot I'd like to write but I don't really know how to describe what I'm feeling and I don't want to bother anyone. I just need to vent a little bit though: I'm depressed and anxious. I haven't seen my therapist in more than three weeks and he's not back from his vacation until the beginning of December. My GAD's been bothering me since I woke up this morning. Oh and my OCD is bombarding me with intrusive thoughts about why I'm posting this and it makes me even lower and even more anxious. The worst thing about the intrusive thoughts is that I know they're caused by my OCD but I still believe them (though deep down I know they're not "my" thoughts). I know they're irrational but still I can't seem to stop doubting. It's a bit of a paradox. The paradox and vicious circle from hell.

I'm not doing that well. I'm scared of failing. I'm scared of everything.

I'm not sure what kind of response I'm looking for. I don't know what I'm expecting. I just know that I needed to let someone know I'm struggling tonight. I hope I'm not too much of a burden by writing this.

I hope you're all doing well,

neutrino