Gosh! There are some people here involved.

Would your husband agree to a marriage retreat? Those types of experiences help clear the "smoke" in a relationship and help many decide to either work harder at the marriage or cut the losses. Retreats are sort of an "eye opener".

About your children, they need to know how much they are loved (yours probably know it) but they also need to feel it! Maybe that is a common ground for you and husband. I am nobody to tell you what to do or how to handle your situation, but, you sure sound like you care a whole lot about them, so talk to your husband and see what you two can come up with to nurture your kiddos. Do what is best for you as a family.

And last, we are all beautiful people, with illnesses or without. Illnesses are just "added features" that don't take away the beauty.

gab