Part of my depression comes from the fact that, I know I'm different from other people, and whenever I try to fit in, what usually comes out of the experience is the fact that people were using that to tell the boss/teacher/person in charge that I was doing xyz wrong. No one tells me ever, hey you're making me uncomfortable can you stop xyz? In most cases I think I've figured out it's just a misunderstanding. It happens EVERYWHERE, I must be a super evil person because I'm not normal and don't so things the way others do. Also, someone starts a rumor that say, I'm a stark raving drunk. I don't drink, but people just seem to assume the worst about me. Another example is let's say I try to tell my boss that x person isn't treating me right, the next schedule I work with them more instead of less. Yet others can say whatever they want about me and I'll never see them again. Why me? What am I possibly doing wrong? How do I prove I'm not doing xyz? I've tried and failed, it happens any place I am in contact with people longer than 10 minutes. It's impossible to prove they're lying or misinformed about me. Unless someone else has an idea. I'm insanely nervous and really clumsy and being around people just makes it worse. I don't attend any social event because they all end the same way, either me alone in a corner or in trouble for whatever.

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