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Originally Posted by Daeva
Therapy often gets worse before it gets better, so as long as you two can work that all out you're on the right track, It's very important to find a T you feel comfortable with and fit well with. However it does take time (I don't know how long you've been seeing your T) for that relatonship to build, don't give up yet!
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I've seen my therapist for three months and a bit. I know that's not very long but I leave pretty much every session feeling very frustrated. Things aren't working. Sometimes I think that's my own fault. Perhaps the fact that I didn't seek help earlier in life (I started feeling like this 10 years ago though it's worse now) has made me treatment resistant or something. Anyway, I hope that the email I sent him will make him understand how I experience our sessions and that we can work on things. I hope he doesn't get angry or something.
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Originally Posted by Daeva
Me? I usually try to distract myself by reading, listening to music, I write poetry, sometimes short stories. Or I take my pastels and draw something violent or draw my feelings, even if it's just a smudge of many different colors. Sometimes I sleep, take a bath, walk. Let myself cry and sit with my feelings, exploring them. Clean. I reach out to others that need support and focus on their problems so I don't have to focus on mine.
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Reaching out to others who need support (like me) is a noble thing to do. Thank you for that. I'm not good at that. I get completely stuck in my own emotions and my own thoughts. On day like this, when I'm feeling the way I do right now, I can't focus on anything. All I can do is sit here, listen to music and let my thoughts and emotions consume me. I know that doesn't sound healthy but I have no coping mechanisms for this. I've spent an awful lot of time trying to distract myself lately but it's not working now. And as I write this my OCD is telling me a lot of things (there's not actually a voice telling me things, but I guess you know what I mean) and making me think this post is all a lie.
Sorry for complaining.