Hun, I wish I could tell you, but like Karla used to tell me "You don't have my feelings." Trying to put myself in your position, for me, it would be what Mike did to you and your family. That hit you where you live. He let you down in the worst way when things were already hitting the fan for you. Even if you weren't really close to the people that passed, and I don't know whether you were or not, just the fact that it seemed they were dropping like flies was bad enough! So much death around you! Makes you wonder about your own mortality!

Don't know if he picked that time to come clean because he figured you were in a weakened position and it wouldn't go so bad for him or not. Who knows if he even thought about it consciously. But from my own life's experience, no doubt he was in denial (big time!) about his addiction and everything just broke at the same time. It could be that your problems were what broke his back. You had been emotionally strong and suddenly you weren't and his support gave out on him. I don't know. I'm just trying to see both sides of the issue. In no way am I trying to defend him and I hope you know that.

Did you ever contact Gambler's Anon? Have you decided yet whether to kick him out or not? Have you informed yourself on how addictive personalities work? You don't have to answer these questions here if you don't want to. You don't even have to answer me. Just think about it. Above all, don't "sweep it under the carpet," ok? You'll get a nasty mound on that rug that will trip you up every time.

Love you!!

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<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>