Hi, I just got a brand-new job. I am thrilled, I really am. However, I am getting depressed. After my schizo-misdiagnosis, I was super happy. It is wearing off. I am having liver problems. Not sure what it is quite yet. I am in constant pain. It is getting worse. When I got the job, I thought it would go away, I thought, hey, I can handle this. I am finally using my fine arts degree. My boss is putting a lot of pressure on me to learn new skills by the beginning of December, as a young girl is leaving because she is pregnant. The customers call him and tell him he has to do everything he can to keep me, that is why they will keep shopping there. I love my job. I had to call off today because of the pain. My former psychiatrist had me on too many strong psych drugs when they were not working anyway and now my liver specialist thinks I may have liver damage from the psych meds, but that is yet to be determined. I am upset that I have so much on my shoulders with my new job. If I had known I was going to be in so much pain, I would have not accepted the job offer. I do not want to have to explain to my new boss about my past and what is going on now. It makes me mad. I am seeing a therapist starting this Monday, I have 2 days yet. I act happy at work, I put on a smile even when my body aches and I just want to sit down and not move. I cannot say what is wrong, I cannot tell people about what I have gone through in life. I work only under 20 hours a week. I do not want to quit, I just started 3 weeks ago, and as I said, I am FINALLY using my fine arts degree, which I never thought I would use. Has anyone else been down this path sort-of, kind-of, ever before??? Can anyone relate or say something to encourage me? I just need a nice word right now. Or soon. I have to go into work tomorrow and be happy to be there, which I will...but starting December 3, I work all by myself and I am still not good at what I will be doing, I get confused, and no one else in the store knows how to do my job.....I am afraid I will start crying.