im mostly over it but in 1 way still mourning growing up good AND having a family

...going on expensive trips all the time

cali...nevada...the south...the hill country of texas...resorts...

...gettig literally hundreds of things for christmas

...but i didnt like my family it wasnt stable

but still it wasnt about the STUFF so no ONE make me out to be something im not

its about mourning a bit the COMFORTABLE life